i am very tired... really tired.... a same question argue for 1 and half year... you not tired but i am... i don know y you have to be to sensitive??? i feel wat i did in the pass 1 and half year is rubbish... i really not secure with this relationship... because i feel that no matter wat i did is cant fight ppl say 1 sentence... i really feel scare and tired...

somemore when every time i say i want some time to chille out.. you are every time time with force me to talk on the sport... i aldy feel that time i cant make a good decision... that y i say i want go home only talk to you... but you just cant... have to want me to come out an answer on the sport...

you know i am really sad de.... my heart is really broken.... and hurt....

beside that... can you don every time after fighting aldy... the next day have to create another thing to argue again??? or even complaining??? do you know the 2nd thing is not a big thing but can but very hurt or very eazy to get frustrated...

arrrrrrrr.................................................i really tired ar........................................

dear dear... i understand your feeling. i also wish to have a day for both of us... is just the timing... eventhough, we cant do anything. we just arrange another day for us... some time there is a problem that i tell you all the thing... when you couldnt attent for something... you will think a lot... to prevent this i hope can just don tell you... but you will emo... and if i tell you... you also will think a lot and emo... so i standing at the middle....

p/s when you miss the 1st time, you will be more appreciate for your 2nd time, and looking forward about that.

i really hope you will be think in this where when you miss whatever thing...

i wonder why ppl have to be always think about the thing that happen just in front ... and wont think about future... i mean when something that can not follow according to the plan... have to be just think why ppl have to be like this and that to destroy the plan... why don we just think how the think can be solve, or find out a way to avoid this kind of thing happen again. this is a batter way to solve the problem isn't it??? because in our life is can not be so prefect. there must be some problem will happen when you try to do thing. ever time when we do thing like project, presentation, or even an outing. there will be a lot of problem... but then end up when we done it, we will feel very happy, this is not because of the thing finally have been done... there is another thing made us feel happy... that is the problem that we face during the preparation period had been solve...

like organise a trip or others... we will feel happy that, we can found enough of ppl, money, room, and entertainment for the trip. you will feel happy when you success. but than, as i said, thing never be so prefect, so when the problem come up... we have to be brave to solve the problem, and not blame each other... therefore, we only can grow or be mature... and when next time the same problem come up, we know how to solve it...

P/S Be brave to solve the problem in front of you, you will feel the success!!!

dear dear... i really feel sorry... i really not happy also when this kind of thing happen... syan and amber also my fren even not as close as you... but because of you... i also feel very bad and knowing wat you facing... yesterday i also just telling you wat they say to me... i also didnt expect they tell me this thing... then i don know why you start angry and like start blaming on me... at the same time i also try to think wat else can be done to settle... but then because you start angry and saying me didnt do anything and just helping them and stand at their side... i totally speechless and angry as well... i'm disappointed also because you think i am just simply tell you they cant go and let you settle all the thing... i hope you understand wat i trying to say...

and for the last night i went to the wedding dinner... i drank quite a lot of alcohol... when i reach home i try to just rest a while on my bed... but who knows... i slept.... that y i didnt make any call or sms to you... until at the mid night 2++ i called and sms to you...

to syan & amber... i really feel sorry about this thing happen...i really don know suddently this thing come out... exspecially syan... i know you want to get the permission to go out is very hard... and cause of this is spoile your plan... i promiss to you all... next time i organise for that outting... to go ourself... and hope you all don angry... and i owe you 1... i treat you all back 1 time but not that la... just something cheaper ok??? hehe...

i really hope you all understand and don angry...